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“My son said how much calmer and happier I've been”

Ella Shaul explains how multiple sclerosis counselling helped her in so many ways 

I decided to start counselling with MS-UK as I had a recent relapse, and have struggled for most of my life with depression, anxiety and mood swings. I have been experiencing multiple sclerosis (MS) symptoms for about 10 years with no diagnosis until two years ago.

I wanted to talk through how I was feeling with someone who would understand, and start to feel that I was making a step forward to feeling better and facing my condition and my depression. I wanted to find an acceptance of my illness.

It was fantastic having Jaz to talk to each week, especially through the difficult times – what with the pandemic and the uncertainty of MS and the world around us.

I had a really good sense of wellbeing after my counselling sessions. I also realised I was enough just being myself, and not focusing on what I can or can't do anymore. I learnt to put my health and wellbeing before other things so I was then able to manage life better. I stopped putting as much pressure on myself to be doing everything.

I found it was easier to ask for help, and be more upfront when I was struggling, instead of just carrying on and making myself feel more unwell. I have been able to stop criticising myself, or if I do, I am able to change the way I’m thinking before it spirals.

Family and friends have noticed a difference in me lately. My son has even said how calm I am and much happier I've been.

I have started to connect with others with MS and it’s been really positive. It's been great knowing people who have the same struggles and discuss the similar tools that we all seem to have to help ourselves. 

I would recommend counselling to anyone. At first I was unsure about it all, especially being in lockdown and having to home school – I thought I wouldn't be able to manage it all. I found taking the time out to speak with Jaz so beneficial. It's definitely a non-judgmental, safe place to offload and navigate ways to help yourself. Also I like that you can speak again with your counsellor again after six months to check how everything is going.